My last name starts with a “W” ; XYZ are the only letters after that and let’s be honest… not a lot of last names start with those letter. All my life in seems, including in school, I’ve had to wait–have patience— since my last name was at the end of the alphabet. Last for roll call, last for graduation (even when I had high honors), last for most things. I got used to it. It’s just a matter of time, right?
I use to wish my last name was higher up in the alphabet at times so I didn’t have to wait and be so patient sometimes to get my grade or get my lunch etc. EVERY bluemoon and I do mean BLUE BLUE moon—the teacher would switch up roll call and go from end to the beginning of the alphabet, but that’s about it.
I use to wonder what that would actually feel like. I didn’t see myself as beneath anyone but that didn’t stop me from having to be last at most things because of where my last name fell in the alphabet-–and that’s often how things are organized. In fact, there have been MANY times in my life where it felt as if I was being purposefully held back and made to just WAIT—no rhyme, no reason, nothing to do with my last name. At times when I should have been the first based on merit, I was still made to wait—seemingly unfairly. I suppose we have all been there in some capacity, though some more than others.
There is even this idea that the “last” of something is not the most “fresh” or “tasteful“—it’s not AS good, so sometimes it is NOT just a matter of time. It is said that the last is the “butt” of something (ex. bread) , and typically if you are the last customer for let’s say a masseuse….you may not get the best massage compared to the 2nd or 3rd customer because at that point she is tired. You kind of get the “butt” of things—the less desirable.
Even now, as an adult, I secretly wish all airlines would just be more like Southwest airlines…no seat assignment, it’s just luck of the draw. I sometimes wish all flights (not just long international ones) were those that seated from the back to front when boarding and had multiple exits for regular de-boarding of the plane because it just makes more sense in terms of flow and more logical, less congested—less WAITING. Perhaps when beverages, snacks, and other foods were served, it would be served where the host start from the front AND the back and meet in the middle so no one has to really wait too long. Is the LAST really just as the FIRST?
This line of thought all seemed like wishful thinking until a couple of recent dreams I’ve had said otherwise. I’m so glad that God does not hand out blessing based on where we are on the alphabet or rather we are the first born or the last or somewhere in the middle.
Dream #2 , shorthanded (roughly 3 month ago):
I was in the cafeteria with others whose last names were at the end of the alphabet like my own, but an amazing thing happened—- we were being served FIRST. We were all in white. There was a very excited, joy/happiness around us and I wasn’t really sure how to feel about it. If it was even real at all—or some cruel joke, but no it was real and it was happening.
Dream #3 , shorthanded (2 nights ago):
There was a reference made to December 10th 2021— a big party was taking place that I MUST attend. it was highlight and made to seem that if I did not attend this party, I would miss out on something that was extremely significant to my waking life.
*SIDE NOTE* I have a cousin who’s birthday party is actually this week on the Nov 27th. She is having a big celebration; it’s her dirty 30. I had already had an initial dream a a month (not detailed here) earlier about this party and it’s importance--this ones detailed here were in actuality the second and third one. I was initially confused about this third dream and the timing of Dec 10th (since nothing is scheduled to happen that day) however, this is where the last is first and the first will be last comes into play. The Last quarter moon is Nov 27th and the first quarter moon is December 11th– just 2 weeks apart as they typically are. The dream was showing me again that the first quarter (DEC 11th) will be last and the last quarter will be first (Nov 27th) which will show great significance.
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Parable of the vineyard workers
Matthew 20 For the kingdom of heaven is like unto a man that is an householder, which went out early in the morning to hire labourers into his vineyard.
2 And when he had agreed with the labourers for a penny a day, he sent them into his vineyard.
3 And he went out about the third hour, and saw others standing idle in the marketplace,
4 And said unto them; Go ye also into the vineyard, and whatsoever is right I will give you. And they went their way.
5 Again he went out about the sixth and ninth hour, and did likewise.
6 And about the eleventh hour he went out, and found others standing idle, and saith unto them, Why stand ye here all the day idle?
7 They say unto him, Because no man hath hired us. He saith unto them, Go ye also into the vineyard; and whatsoever is right, that shall ye receive.
8 So when even was come, the lord of the vineyard saith unto his steward, Call the labourers, and give them their hire, beginning from the last unto the first.
9 And when they came that were hired about the eleventh hour, they received every man a penny.
10 But when the first came, they supposed that they should have received more; and they likewise received every man a penny.
11 And when they had received it, they murmured against the goodman of the house,
12 Saying, These last have wrought but one hour, and thou hast made them equal unto us, which have borne the burden and heat of the day.
13 But he answered one of them, and said, Friend, I do thee no wrong: didst not thou agree with me for a penny?
14 Take that thine is, and go thy way: I will give unto this last, even as unto thee.
15 Is it not lawful for me to do what I will with mine own? Is thine eye evil, because I am good?
16 So the last shall be first, and the first last: for many be called, but few chosen.
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